Day 2 - 9.00 am

Day 2 of being smoke free. i didnt sleep very well last night have a bit of a sore tummy and kept dreaming about smokes and woke up every hour on the hour maybe its the patches?
Im finding things difficult atm, not because i want a smoke or am even craving one but when my stress level rises then i find it more difficult and Connor doesn't seem to be doing to well and the stress in the house is rapidly rising. i am trying to be supportive of him but he is just getting really irritated and having a go at me about things that are not even my fault. I know its part of trying to give up but i kinda think if i can walk away as soon as i'm starting to feel slightly irritated and do something else rather than taking it out on him then he can bloody well do the same . I so badly want to do this but feel i cant if he is going to keep stressing at me.... im not looking forward to day and starting to think maybe it would be easier if he was at work. ( you probably will read this but this is my blog and i write on here rather than taking it out on you :P)
I need support in the way that my achievements are recognized, and trying to be as stress free as possible the whole house - its contagious if your happy and stress free. but also unfortunately works the other way round aswell. its hard not to get stressed when someone is having a go at you and then when you point it out its still there fault......
anyway hoping that today will be an ok day. The thing really bothering me is we Have to succeed and i kind of wish i hadn't agreed to the bike not because i don't want to give up but more because i don't think that Connor appreciates that and the effort it is taking from me. I am not actually getting anything financial /materialistic from it and he has exactly what he wants wich is why we are giving up. Mainly for him!
anyway im going to go try be stress free, smoke free all day again - may update later.