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today has not been easy i feel grumpy and irritated and sick and very very sleepy i want a smoke, i keep thinking one wont hurt but i know it will. plus i will be un-doing all the work I've done and we have now gone 38 hours without a smoke which is probably the most ever since we started smoking. i just wish i could shake this feeling. i know i can do it and get through but its the argh i want one feeling and it doesn't help if you want one and someone says you can have one if you want *Connor cough Connor*